Today I take off my boxing gloves. I don't have the desire to fight. No umph, no pow, no fizzle. I just don't have the energy. I woke up this morning and decided that what will be, will be. I decided to shrug my shoulders more often, say that I don't know (with no desires of knowing) and genuinely not be concerned with results today. My normal drive is on vacation! No proof of life in the energy department. But I don't have to, I won't complain, I will just wait for change. And I'm ok with that. I'm weak, He's strong. Simple and true equation. 2 Corinthians 12:6-10 (msg)
I can perfectly understand why ppl just walk away from their life and not look back. I don't say this in a neglectful way. Life gets heavy. Informed decision making, can be taxing. I just heard a nurse say this to a patient, " think past how you feel cuz that feeling is momentary." This makes me think on Jer 17:9. She couldn't be more right.
God will send me help and hope. Its ok to step back and let the King bring in this victory. My hope is not in these temporary situations, its in the Lord.