My dream prepped me.

Sometimes you think of ppl more than they think of u and the imbalance is torture.

Incongruent thinking, undefined boundaries and vague expectations are often traveled and unintended paths. Enjoyable only while walking, dreaded on exit.
Shauna

Don't hold on to things that weren't meant to be.
Shauna

It's OK.

Today I take off my boxing gloves. I don't have the desire to fight. No umph, no pow, no fizzle. I just don't have the energy. I woke up this morning and decided that what will be, will be. I decided to shrug my shoulders more often, say that I don't know (with no desires of knowing) and genuinely not be concerned with results today. My normal drive is on vacation! No proof of life in the energy department. But I don't have to, I won't complain, I will just wait for change. And I'm ok with that. I'm weak, He's strong. Simple and true equation. 2 Corinthians 12:6-10 (msg) I can perfectly understand why ppl just walk away from their life and not look back. I don't say this in a neglectful way. Life gets heavy. Informed decision making, can be taxing. I just heard a nurse say this to a patient, " think past how you feel cuz that feeling is momentary." This makes me think on Jer 17:9. She couldn't be more right. God will send me help and hope. Its ok to step back and let the King bring in this victory. My hope is not in these temporary situations, its in the Lord.

self talk

Convo with my oldest about (-) self talk. It MUST be conquered at all costs, or it will COST u. Learn to Love what you Hate to conquer it.

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Reflection: I'm glad you said no. Romans 8:28
Shauna

The Struggle

To say we struggle with something does not mean we are losing. Its acknowledging that the thing takes more energy to overcome than others. Its confessing that moments of positive self talk can prevent the stream of negativity from flowing.
This conversation's inspiration...
"I just looked n the mirror and self talk told me that it didn't like what my eyes saw and I said aloud, I am beautiful", hunched my shoulders and walked away. I'm pretty sure it will happen again, unless I choose to avoid mirrors for the rest of my life. But this time, during this struggle, I won. "Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect, it means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections."- Author Unknown
Shauna

Act without notice

This morning, I read that authenic leaders know who they are, know what they believe in and valuw, and act on those values and beliefs openly and candidly.

This is in the same season in which I have decided that I will continue to "Act without notice". As I am confident in decisions being made to better myself, to ensure positive attraction, to manage the atmosphere of my kids, I have desired a perfected behavior in mature positioning. I have no apologies for my maturity. When I have reached a decision, I will promptly act accordingly. Power is lost when we feel guilty, so guilty that we have to make explanations for our decisions. I choose to not acknowledge a need to explain.. I just do...and act without notice.

If you see a change in me and feel that you are deserving to have an explanation, please know that you may not get one.  I do and act accordingly.